Blogs are a way to express your feelings, and right now i am confused. My heart is aching, i need to say it. If anybody out there still reads my blog, i hope you forgive what i am going to say :
Okayyy, so i have a few friends right now who seem to be experiencing a bunch of problems in their life. I am worried about them but it seems that even though i think of myself as a good friend to them, i don't think they trust me enough yet. Even though i have known you for 4-5 YEARS! (You don't read my blog but you know who i am talking about!) Throughout my Secondary school years, i have always wished i had a good friend to talk to about the suffering i endure every single day, it seriously sucks to keep it all in and have nobody, no friends, to talk to.
I want to give them a way to have someone to talk to, a chance which i never had, but sometimes i wonder whether i am going too far to help people. I might think to myself that i am giving them a way to vent, but maybe they think i am just a busybody who should stop disturbing them. Maybe i should not care about their problems....but can i do that..? I care for people but will they appreciate it? Do i expect anything out of the care i show? I don't know myself, i just want to know the worries of others because i am enjoying my life now and i also want others to enjoy their life. Perhaps there are just things which people don't want to talk about, not even to their friends. Maybe that is just one of the things which they do not want to tell me. Maybe i should stop worrying about them.
So many "Maybes" and yet i know i will not be able to do about half of the things which i mentioned. I can say it but do i have the willpower to do it, i always want to help people, it gives me this satisfied feeling in my heart when i help them. I will try a bit longer, i will try to earn their trust. I am happy when someone trusts me with their secret, i wonder whether anyone ever will.......
Term Tests are coming...
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I don't know why, but sometimes I just get a little sad over god knows
what. Its just my anti-social-emo nature to do so, I can't help but be sad
over thin...
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