Thinking/Whining/Daydreaming/Confused

So i am at work right now......and i am bored so i got thinking. I have been reading blogs every day (friends) and most of the daily updates seem to be showing that they are not really enjoying the holidays. I used to enjoy the holidays so much during my secondary school simply because I was not IN school. Now i kinda feel that i have more fun on school days than holidays. Wait...how did this topic float to me? It was supposed to be about others!

Soooo, i was reading a friend's blog the other day and she seems to think almost the same way i do. She had more fun during the holidays during her secondary school (i dont know what she did) than during her holidays now. Is it because we arent meeting up for big class holiday excursions or is it just because we are all sitting bored at home watching korean dramas so we feel very lonely/bored/emo.

Sometimes, you also dont know whether you are doing the right thing. As they say, "you need 2 hands to clap". Sometimes i really wonder, am i clapping and the other hand isnt? Or is the other hand clapping --> this way and im also clapping --> this way so we arent actually making any progress.

AND sometimes, you also feel that you are being ignored. Ever get that feeling? You are talking, and nobody is replying and you do NOT know whether they are listening with nothing to say or they are just tired of you and do not want to listen any more. No way to tell unless they say it to you or give you "THAT" expression. Even in blogs, if nobody ever says anything in the tagbox/comment section, you wont even have the motivation to want to create new posts as you make a blog to let people read it! If you arent getting any responses, it gives you the idea that NOBODY is reading it! Then you wont want to update your blog as there is no point. Get my idea?

Also, nowadays i am faced with the idea of secrecy. Children are pure, they are honest, they do not keep deeeeep secrets about whether they like you or not. They tell you straight in the face. At least that way, you know you are disliked and can do something about it. BUT once you grow up into teenagers/adults, the number of personal secrets increases, AND you cannot say it to anyone! I dont think i have ever heard any teenager or adult telling another person:"Hey man, i dont like you. Please do something about it." NO, they just keep quiet and try to pretend that they are friendly to the person so the person just continues on his/her innocent way without knowing that what he is doing is actually pissing off the other person. Also, most people now hide behind a 'shell'. What they are feeling at the moment might not be what they are actually showing on their face. You can be feeling very sad and want to cry on somebody's shoulder (for some unspeakable reason) and you are just showing a smiling face to all your friends then cry by yourself in a little toilet hidden somewhere. Sometimes, i really dont understand why they do not just release their sad emotions to their friends so they can at least comfort them, even if it does not really help, at least you know that they care about you enough to be putting in the effort of trying to make you feel better.

Okay, that is all my personal thoughts and whinings for the day. I still have lots to talk about but i guess i should keep the WORD SPAM to a minimum otherwise people wont even read it (Like T&C which nobody ever reads and just presses the "agree" button for).